It's been 3 months of trying, only 3 months but I have fell all the way down into that sadness again. It's surprising to me that it happened so quickly. The confidence I thought I had, just washed away. I'm so impulsive with decisons because otherwise I am anxious waiting to make them, waiting to follow though. There is peace with completion. It kills me to again not know if I'm going to be able to get pregnant again. Will it take 6 years? Should I have started earlier? Infertility is difficult because it makes you question yourself and ultimately your foundation.